Hey, I wanna be a rockstar.

(tell me what you want)

Yeah, that song is on. But it's kind of cool. And I'm stuck at work for another 29 minutes. I'm really excited, this upcoming week is going to be interesting...

And I need a costume for a renaissance festival I'll be performing in and it's this saturday and I STILL DON'T HAVE IT because I WAS NEVER TOLD IT WASN'T PROVIDED. Wow, actors are such divas, aren't they.

And yay, it's raining.

And apparently there are a couple guys at work who like hitting on me and it's weird. I mean, I don't look good at work. I don't try to look what "good" is Alicia Definition.

Government - A test in 3 Acts.

ActI- basic detail, covers briefly what will be happening. Piece of cake.

ActII- the climax, land mines, me dying and tripping over the 27 amendments and what they specifically are. Bullets flying everywhere, blood shed -- you get my point.

Act III- Resolution. Done. 100 questions.

I've had better.

Bipolar Xanga? Got ya covered.

It looks like whatever I write about is either something really really good or my anger issues with people and the world. ... quote-on-quote world. And I can't say I'll stop venting because well that's just not going to happen, but maybe someday... I'll write a story and you can read it and say "Hey, that was a good story! I like what you wrote today!" or something nice and funny. I can't put videos on here because I don't want to.

So, I have great friends. And I can dance -- I just advanced my jump and it's kick-ass now so I'm happy. And there are many more auditions to be getting excited about... And my family has chilled out and the male is actually helping out a lot around the house, so that's good. What else was I upset about?? I don't remember... that's a good thing.

I'm hungry, so I thinkg I'll get some food.

I was hit on by a yesterdog emplyee and two lesbians in east town last night with some friends. It was fun. And funny. Trying to find a decent bathroom in that part of town is tricky when Morningstar's is clogged and Yesterdog's is unaccessable [for some odd reason]. And Blockbuster doesn't even have one. But we have a great friend who let us walk to his house and use his nice, clean, classy-looking bathroom. Ahhh. Much better.

I have a test tomorrow. In government. I'm really trying to learn and have it stick in my head, but it's like my brain is denying it access to storage, it's gone in two days. Shit.

Fuck It.

Alright.

I didn't make the audition.

Two-thirds of my family is driving me up the wall.

I need to get out of my house but can't.

There are a lot of things in life I want but just can't seem to grasp them.

Other than that, it's all good.

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I'm actually not sad or bumming out because I didn't get cast -- there are other performances I have coming up. It's the whole "somebody being better than me" thing which is getting to my ego that rarely comes out in my true personality (unless I'm the whore in a show, so every show).

Number two. Male and female are being lazy, procrastinatng, idiots that forget that I too have things going on and that I can't be the only person taking care of the house. In fact, I have more shit going on than they do combined. Female is going away for the entire weekend, male is sitting on his ass downstairs or working, just not being here. Which leaves me -- the youngest and busiest to tend to everything else that they don't want to do (which is everything, mind you).

That also takes care of numero trece.

I can't dance as well as I want due to my flat feet and stupid back injury. I want to model but I'm not tall enough.

I don't want to write anymore because I might get angry.

*gasp*!

Alright, so Xanga hasn't let me in in a couple months. I guess my password was "incorrect" for a while but I managed to get back in tonight! Let's see, so now I'm supposed to update and tell you what's going on in my world... school is pretty cool, work is getting to be a bit irritating, I find out tomorrow if I'm in a college show, and I'm taking care of my mom who just got shoulder surgery. Oh, and I lost three pounds since Thursday. Why? Hmm, well if you were reading the last few sentences you wouldn't be asking yourself that. Ah! I got myself a pink iPod and it's great. Finally, I am able to walk around and sing along with songs that are playing in my ears and not stuck in my head. I still have to fill it (800 more songs to go).

I got accepted to Grand Valley State U. I don't want to go there, there's nothing in Allendale for theatre students. I want to go someplace else but I don't know where that is. So, I guess I'm getting my B.A at GVSU and then kicking the entertainment business' ass one audition at a time.